Ditch the Ego, Grab the Pen

I’ve always believed in growth, but lately, I’ve felt a visceral pull to document this phase of my life. Not just for accountability, but to remember the raw, unfiltered emotions driving me forward. What’s different this time? Clarity. Writing down my thoughts—no matter how messy—has forced me to confront what I truly want. Here’s where my intuition is leading me these days.

1. Redefining My Relationship with My Body

Goal: I want to feel confident in my skin again—not for others, but for myself.

For years, I’ve hidden in loose tees and pajamas. But recently, watching dance reality shows and korean dramas sparked a desire to explore my femininity: dresses, boots, fitted tops, shorts. It’s definitely not about mimicking a TV star; it’s about reclaiming a part of myself I’ve neglected.

2. Dismantling Self-Esteem Myths

Goal: Build self-worth rooted in authenticity, not external validation.

Past me thrived on being the “do-good nerdy girl” obsessed with rationality, altruism and analytics. Present me? She’s shedding ego layers. I’m admitting I’m not the best—and that’s okay. But I am committed to mastering my craft (and finding layers to what makes me 'me') without pretending to be someone I’m not.

3. Mastering Communication

Goal: Replace reactive chatter with intentional dialogue.

I used to equate talking fast with sounding smart. Now, I want to listen deeply, respond thoughtfully, and network with purpose.

Why Writing Matters

My coach once told me: knowing what you want is 90% of the battle. My habit tracker? It’s useless unless my goals are specific enough for a genie to grant. “Lose weight” became “15 pounds by December.” “Be better at AI” became “10 hours/week on python and Generative AI courses.”

And here’s the truth: I’ve failed multiple times before because my goals weren’t mine. They were borrowed from books or influencers online. Monkey see, monkey do-right? Now, I’m trusting experiential learning—the gut feelings that scream, This matters! Writing forces me to distill those intuitions into actionable steps.

Finally, Write your thoughts,P. No matter how uncooked they are. Here's another one from my coach: “Write badly first, then edit”—I think it applies to self-improvement too. I’m not a polished final product. I’m Draft #1: clunky, overambitious, but alive with potential. And that’s okay.

So here’s to embracing the mess, one 15-minute writing session a day. - P P.S. If you’re on a similar journey, try the “genie test” for your goals. Ask: Could a stranger picture exactly what I want? If not, get specific. The magic is in the details. ✨